I don't believe in God, but I'm afraid of him

I have no religion, I don’t believe in God… I think we are religious because we are too lazy to investigate things about our life, we are too lazy to explain what is happening with us. We don’t want to accept that we made “life rules” for us, for humanity, not for God. We made them just to prevent the chaos in our world, because people without any rule are able to get too crazy and too irresponsible. Or maybe someone made these rules just to manipulate us, history is full of surprises. In my vision, God is the ideal human being, it’s our imaginary leader which makes us not feel alone, too not get lost in time and in our actions.

We say: I believe in God, because I felt him, I know he exists, he helped me, I had weird stuff in my life that I can not explain, God made that… But, what if this is just how our brain works? In our brain there are approximately 20 billion nerve cells and don’t you think he is able to make us feel weird or have paranormal visions sometime?! Our body is a really complex system which can have functional disorders in different ways, with different signs. There are a lot of external factors able to influence the normal function of our body: solar energy, weather phenomena, pollutants, etc etc etc. Without science like medicine, this world could be just a cemetery.

If we want something really hard, we should work in order to make that real, which means we constrain our actions. If we believe really hard in something, we make our brain think in this way, we program it and we get the result back: the desired picture, the desired feeling. Everything depends on how we see, interpret our situation and how involved are we in this.

         I don’t believe in God, but I’m afraid of him, because in his name people can do foolish stuff. Sometimes I compare in my head those too religious people with some employees trying to please their boss, but not their peers, not themselves. If you help someone, that’s because God said to do that… Why? Shouldn’t that be your decision? You help someone because you can, because YOU want to do that. YOU are your God…And if you make a decision, it’s your decision, your life, your brain…